Quite reminders

Even though it is pooring down raining here (and no better forecast for the coming week), I decided to pack the winter clothes away in the basement and bring up the bins full of summer stuff. We are going to St Maarten next week. I feel some anxiety about that trip (because that's where I found out I was pregnant with Nolan, and because we have a timeshare there, we will be in the exact same appartment, same week). I try to not let that ruin a week of fun in the sun. It's all a matter of controling your mind.

So. Unpacking the summer stuff. I always like that. Over the course of the long cold winter, you kind of "forget" what pieces you have in your wardrobe, don't you? Every top I pull out, is "oh I forgot about this one". Like shopping in your own closet. I was happy going through all the white shirts and bright flirty dresses. Humming a song, even though it is so depressing outside. Who cares? I'll be on the beach next week. Wearing this. And this. And oh... look at this! I could already see myself strolling down the boulevards of the French harbors, holding Norman's hand and feeling pretty (because that's what sun tans do... they make you feel prettier). This is fun. I picked up another pair of pants that I didn't immediately remember. I unfolded it, held it up in front of me, arms stretched out, to examine it a little better. And than it hit me...  LAST YEARS PREGNANCY CLOTHES! My clothes from last summer. Shitty, horrible, traumatic last summer. And with it were his tiny outfits and the little onesies my mom had brought me from Holland. Still in the plastic. Never worn.

Bye bye happy summer feeling.

I am not crying. But just in case, I will wait a few more days before I sort out the rest of the summer clothes. I am fine wearing my winter stuff for another week. It's rainy and cold anyway.

Comments

[Daph]

Hoop dat het zonnetje in je hoofd snel weer gaat schijnen!! Ik spreek/lees je niet meer voor je vakantie, vertrek vanavond naar de sneeuw... Geniet er van lieve Jess, samen met Norm & Imani. Luv ya!